All of my change I've spent on you

My camera was broken after my trip to re-discover Jordan. Re-discover, as in after 5 years living here only now i went to Petra, Jordan's treasure, one of the seven wonders. It's filled with shits literally as there were donkeys, camels, horses and dogs (and human) running around so it stinks, it's a damned place, it's dusty, crowded, hot, very big and it's not that great in my eyes. I wonder how it deserves to be one of the wonders, i mean, come on. It marked the accomplishment of the previous generation yes, but that's it. We all know human are great at adapting. In order to adapt with them living in the desert, they built that thing, carved the mountain to live inside it maybe because they don't have tree around so can't build rumah kayu. And then they bred and everything evolved, so Petra is just what's left of the ancient city. One day in the future, like year 4012, i guess people will be gawking into what's left of New York and claim ah human is great and clever. Same concept. As in seven wonders, i think Jeita Grotto in Lebanon is much much much more fascinating and wonderful. Lucky me i only paid 1jd to be in that shitty place. I'm not into that kind of thing so i was quite disappointed that day. Plus, I forgot to bring dexpanthenol so my face was so dry, itchy, swollen, reddish and burnt.

Then we went to Aqaba and Wadi Rum to save the mood yay!. Those two are my fav places in Jordan, if they're nearer i'd spent every weekend there.

And on the way home, i noticed my camera was broken. The lens cover was stuck, they couldn't close and exposed my lens. It must be because of the very fine sand particle in Wadi Rum entered the lens and jammed the system. Or because i accidentally "injured" my camera while slipping  it into my pocket.

So the next day (or the next next day don't remember sudah tua!), after resting, i tried to fix it dumbly. Lens cover stuck, ah can just pull the lens cover with forceps. I did it, yeah, lens cover closed, no gap, but my lens couldn't extend and it said "lens error". I totally freaked out at this moment! My camera rosak sudah, need to buy new one! So i checked my spending account, got money or not for new camera. Got got, back pain pays man!

So i googled for new camera's price hehe. I want a small camera with faster speed and nicer picture. The likes of Nikon J1/V1 or Pentax K-01. I always want a DSLR before, but i hate their huge ass size. Huge ass as in they don't fit into my handbag easily. I'm not a good photographer, i have no sense, no skill and no time (and will) to learn, and i always think only good photographer can own a huge ass camera, so when the mirrorless interchangeable lens camera came out, i jumped in joy eventhough i do not own them yet!

I was about to call my dad to survey those cameras and decide which one to buy, before i figured out hey let's try google lens error. Then i stumbled upon this, and chose the easiest way to try, smack the camera. I turned on the camera and smacked the camera lens down lightly onto my palm twice, and magically my lens can extend properly now! It's noisy though, when i turned it on, but it's functioning normally. I guess the tiny particle came out and stopped jamming the system. So yeah, no new camera yet, and the money can be channelled into something more useful, like eating doli's kotiau daily during my elective yay! Besides, it's more advantageous for me to get new camera next year, because those kind of cameras i want are still new to the market, and Canon hasn't produce them yet. I guess with Canon entering the field, the competition will become wilder and the price baseline will go down a bit. And i'm graduating next year, so i can ask for the camera as my graduation gift hihi. One year advance notice mom/dad/brada!

i'm coming, doli!

On the other hand, I'm currently in Anesthesia rotation and it's fun. Mostly we learn about drugs with narrow therapeutic index with death as side effects, and some techniques. Anesthetists don't seem to be busy, they have time to read Jane Austen in OT and sometimes laugh covertly when junior surgeon scolded by senior surgeon. They prep the patient for surgery, make sure everything is ok, then rest for the rest of the surgery, look at the monitor once in a while to check, when the surgery finishes they stop the anesthesia and wake the patient up and send them to the recovery room, observe, if the patient is fine (got criteria to decide how fine the patient is, but i forgot), send them to ward and that's it. Seems fun to me. Though learning it here is not that much fun because (damn you Adele i thought it's a banshee outside! my hair is all standing now! Stop wailing in the middle of the song please!!) of my lack of understanding of Arabic. I must be a retard, living here for 5 years and still don't understand most of time what the heck are my doctors' questions. I always end up babbling things that have nothing to do with the question if i answer at all, most of the time i said "i don't know" because that's much safer than saying "doctor i don't understand your question.". My landlord's bibik, when she came here, she knew nothing about Arabic, 4-5 months latter she communicates with us in Arabic. Lucky me almost all of my exams are conducted in English, except when i was examined by a moody woman who i suspect must be in her pre-menopausal period.

ps1: I listened to Safe and Sound by Taylor Swift and that hauntingly tribal song from Maroon 5, and i think Hunger Games must be a good movie because those songs are beautiful! Good movies always have good songs made for them. Crappy movies, they just use the songs available. So, movies to look forward to: Hunger Games, The Raid: Redemption<-- this one, shinoda made the score, awesome! and it's indonesian action movies, double awesome because asian action movies usually lack of cg so they perform the stunts themselves gracefully! remember chocolate? ong bak?

ps2: I pray for the best, for my country, and for everyone. Let's play fair, really. Keep fighting.

ps3: I wanna taste horlick mcflurry too huuu!

Blissful moment...

I want to write about lots of things, serious and casual, medical and life, new discoveries, reviews, but i'm in bliss now and writing those things seems like a waste of this limited blissful moments. So, i'll list here what i want to write, so that when the lonesome time come, i'll just log on my blogger account and start writing. Lonesome time= after raya, every weekdays 7-2 roughly. Will be too sad and too lonely being home alone at that time i don't wanna think about it yet.

The things.
-reviews--> hadalabo, movies, malaysian tv program, param, 4th year in general, books, android,
-medical-->attachment plan, lasik, my study, allergic
-life--> family affair on how my sister is cool!, super stupid students my parents told me who are super stupid they amuse my parents instead of anger them
-serious-->stupid malaysian, stupid system in malaysia, the attention-whore in tv3 everyday must ada her big face though who the hell she thinks she is, the never-ending cat-and-dog-chase insanely disgusting case, women affairs,
-new discoveries-->crazy soda! (hahahahahahhahaha), how to mati stamp, flyover  making

Btw, as if i'm that rajin to write..but who knows right, boredom+loneliness= end up doing things i don't usually like to do. like basuh jamban and vacuum rumah. But i plan to sleep a lot, to store sleep because i plan to study seriously next year. Store some sleep, as in camel stores water in its hump to prepare for the long journey.

In the mean time, i'm this. Comfortable doing things i like to do, and at peace.

Iridescent

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ESOK AKU NAK PAKAI BAJU APAAAAAAAAAAA?!!

KASUT PUN TARAK!!!!!

to arina: ko selalu cakap hatiku tertinggal di malaysia, kes aku kali ni, bukan takat hati ja...huhu

Puasa rukun islam ketiga

I have soooo much to write, and infinite laziness. When i said i wanted to rest completely, i didnt kid. HAhahahahaha. very evil. and yes, i rest to the fullest. it's heaven here. H.E.A.V.E.N.

Oh, i have to tell about my first flight with rj. partial direct amman-kl.

food: good. 3.5/5. but they dont wake you up or tell you when to sahur, when to break fast. but they did tell when to stop eating. i hate the fact they dont serve heavy meal for sahur, unlike qatar last year. but still, the food itself is good.

seat: erm.3/5. not big, doesnt has foot rest. the isle was quite narrow, i couldnt pull my luggage, i had to carry it. i sat just behind the lavarage, it's quite spacious i can actually lie there. i just knew, if we sit there, the stewardess will brief about emergency door, how to pull it and stuff.ooo. too bad its a stewardess.

toilet: 2/5. doent stock the cup. and of course, no toothpaste and whatnots are provided.

flight entertainment: 2/5. but better than gulf. they got like ten movies, and 2 episodes of big bang theories, and 2 episodes of friends. yes, that outdated friends. i killed my boredom by playing sudoku, because i couldnt sleep.

stewardess: 1.5/5. they are pretty, unlike mas, but one of them are pure rude and stupid, maybe. i packed my dinner on the way from bangkok to kl (it's partial direct remember, they stopped for an hour at bangkok), and somehow because of the slight delay, we had to break fast on the air.haha. so i unpacked my meal, and asked for a tray. i didnt want to mess my place, which is an advantage for them, right. but that stewardess, named sanpornt something, she couldnt understand me. she thought i wanted another meal. i explained again, despite all those tiredness and heartache, and she walked away sourly. then she came with meal. i told her i just wanted that tray. then she scolded me, YES, SCOLDED ME, she said, do want to take this tray home? bloody hell. why would i want a cheap plastic tray? even beggar would reject that tray for god sake. then another indian stewardess explained to her, about me wanting to eat in the tray. when she realised it, she gave me that tray, and said she misundestood me. and she didnt apologise. i said, god, i've been explaining this all this time, and you just.. at this point, she cut my talk and said in high pitch, BUT YOU SAID YOU WANT A TRAY. serious stupid, i mean, what did you call that thing? tray, right. i wanted to curse her, but there's as atok from umrah trip sitting near me, manela tau kot2... but still, i couldnt completely control my temper, i just messed my place, i accidentally dropped the water cup, and purposely didnt pick it up, and i messed my place. i purposely repeat that i messed my place, because i really messed it.

the other stewardess, apart from that stupid fat ugly troll sanporn, were very friendly and helpful. i chatted with this one from thailand. she said she just reached amman from bangkok yesterday, and today she has to come to kl. and that night she'll fly to amman again.

is it comfortable: not really. i was very tired, i dont know why. at some point, i couldnt feel my leg and i thought i was going to die in that flight. i think i prefer a flight with proper transit kot...penatttt sangat i dont know how my return flight will be. at least the return flight i can eat.

punctuality: 1/5. delay! if i wasnt a miracle girl i would've miss my penang flight. we landed at 2020, and my penang flight departed at 2115. heh! at amman airport, i think they really had thorough examination, we had like 30-40 mins where everything was ready, but we still didnt move. and during take-off, there was this foul smell, like something's burning. i asked the stewardess and she said it's normal. and when everything's steady, the foul smell was gone as well. maybe it's normal, but i've never experience it before.

-if only i know where to drop my dissatisfaction..rj site is real trash!

Life update 2

1.Second week of first handyman-like job finished. it feels great working there, and they want me to return if possible.that if possible wont happen la kot..and somehow i think my timing was super miracle, because now a young man (26) from another division is replacing my 2-weeks post which has been empty for a tok kaduk period, and if i aint dismissing myself, those aunties and uncles are going to matchmake us to death. they tried to once when that man introducing himself, but succumbed to everest-like workload.

2.brazil out-no surprise, i always support underdog,

3.leader of my fav korean band dismissed himself, ss501-->ss401. huhuhu. maybe rumours.

4.i got another animal-kissing bedsheet, this time its mouse.

5.someone told me he wants to get married in pisa penang-a serious wth, marriage isnt a concert for god sake!,

6. other someone bought me my first adult novel(s), because she said i am too baby.(if i'm this matured and she called it baby, then what my lil la is? zygote?) this is so sick! she wanted to get me a dan brown, but i refused. at that price, i could get two other novels, so i chose the two other novels. shakespeare's curse and original sin. i finished original sin, and its full with adultery. now i know why they are called adult novel. yucks. but that part excluded, that novel was real good. about a publicist for super-rich family who has to cover all their black deeds.

acute sleepiness attack.zzz. babai

cynical irony

Unexpectedly, Egypt was great. long entry awaits, when i get "the time". worry not dearies, i'm safe and sound, with chronic pain in gastronemius.