Life update #4

I had my almost 10 days holiday, and it will end soon. it's really nice to have this break in the middle of the course, considering we're studying non-stop, of course figuratively, since last October. It's not really a holiday btw, it's a 2-weeks forensic course, but since forensic isn't major here, we were able to conclude the course in 3 days. I wonder why we have to have this course in the first place since forensic has its own people, non-medical people. maybe they don't have standalone forensic course here. but not complaining, i love this holiday!

I've been bragging about my holiday to countless people and it feels good. really good that i sleep smiling every night oh god i love holiday! my mom, as usual, nagged me to study eventhough it's holiday. my dad, he's cool, asked me where to go for this holiday. heh tanya je ape cerita dad, money don't breed itself. sterile money.

Too bad this weekend my sponsor decided to disturb me with "student development kinda program". I don't mind meeting the delegacy, in fact i do look forward to it, but i don't like hearing some shit about ethics and motivation. i took a course for ethics during 3rd year, and passed with flying colours (who doesn't? it's bonus course, never read anything also got >80) and i honestly think my behaviour is good, haven't kill anyone. Motivation? god if i aint motivated i'd be in paddington now. But whatevs, they provide free food. and i have a decent noise-cancelling earphone.

ah speaking about earphones...huuuuuu my beloved headphone has gone bonkers, only one side is functioning, THANK YOU SO MUCH SENN FOR YOUR STRAIGHT CABLE AAAAAAAAAAAARRGHH. so i bought a new one, after a sleepless night hunting for a decent headphone with decent price that will ship to Jordan, almost a month ago. Well, that's emergency, because i can't live without my headphone, and my brother is not where he can help. And guess what, a month and my new headphone is still not arrived. I wanted to regret why i chose the cheapest shipping option, but considering the other options are far more expensive than the headphone itself, i calmed down, and keep on waiting. in tears. headphone, safe journey, mama's waiting :(.

ok serious business. SPM 2011. perubatan timur tengah. medic middle east. perubatan jordan. medic jordan.  biasiswa. scholarship. mara. jpa. (all the key words i can think of)

The result was out and i hope government won't be too stupid to send new medical students, here or anywhere in the world. I'll graduate next year and i worry so much whether i can practise in my own country of not, the doctors glut is a serious problem. And that gets worse with time. And it's possible for medical graduate to become jobless. But that's not really my worry, it's their own shit. why i hate new medical students? oh i only hate new medical students here, i don't really give a damn about others. because, that means more competitors for buses, which means if i get out late, i'll be in deep shit with doctors. late here is not 'late' late, it's still early for previous me. irbid can't afford this sudden increase of malaysian scholars. buses can't afford it too. traffic jams become more frequent, and bad people become more daring because we malaysian are usually easy targets, traders will cheat and raise the price more because malaysian scholars have enough money to still buy it. man i hate all of these. and more, do you know how JUST benefits so much from us malaysian students? that means more money for them, and jordanian government indirectly and I HATE THAT SO MUCH. Jordan is a country i plan to erase from my memory, and from the world map if i could, and the ever increasing malaysian population here doesn't help my mission. 

one must wonder why i hate jordan so much, and before people might start assuming various reasons why, let me explain myself first. well, nothing really bad (really bad means rape, sexual harassment, rob, flasher, stab kinda stuff) happen to me yet, alhamdulillah, but those bad things happen to some people i know and it scares me. then, i hate people here, who cheats so much, and calling us names, looking at us as if we're from freak circus, throwing things at us. i hate how it's so hard to get decent things (clothes-to get decent one need to go to amman, headphones, bags, glasses) here. It might sound like minor things, and people may think i'm just spoiled brat who can't stand any hardship, but try living with that minor bad things every single day for 6 years. there are good things here too, but since bad things are more prominent and i encounter it on daily basis, it takes some effort to memorize the good things. some malaysian like it here though, makes me wonder how their lives are in Malaysia to prefer living here. 

i really hope some spm leavers who plan to apply for middle east medicine and dentistry read this and cancel their intentions. in fact, why bother taking medicine at all? during my time, people take medicine because of the guaranteed job delusion. now that delusion has come to light, i wonder why people still want to take medicine. if you want money, go for acca and actuarial science (if your dad owns a business go for business admin.). if you want to look cool go for architecture. if you want respect go for law and religious studies (religious studies graduate are so menantu pilihan now). if you want to secure a job go for it-related course, that bubble isn't gonna pop soon, it keeps growing. this is my sincere advice to you, spm 2011 leavers. unless you really like it so much that you'll go mad if you couldn't study it, and you are brilliant enough, then don't. if your parents are stone-headed and will send you to do medicine no matter what, first, try reasoning with them. well i know fully well that wouldn't work. 2nd, try to fail your entrance exam on purpose. you'll suffer from some short-lived embarrassment, but you'll save yourself from never-ending suffering. ask yourself what do you actually want.  stop the bullshit doctor is a noble job. every job is noble if you work honestly.

if you still want to do medicine, go read dr pagalavan. even after reading that you still want to do medicine, there might be something wrong with you, or more unlikely, you must be truly interested. good luck in getting job, in 2017.