Tale of Unfortunate Events #2

Recap of today's unfortunate events, again, for the sake of my sanity, in the future, when i read this i'll remember that i was awesome, i escaped all these unscathed. I'm awesome.

I'm in psychiatry rotation now, and this day i had my round in my university hospital. I can't believe i'm saying this, but still i'll say it, I HATE PSYCHIATRY ROTATION IN KAUH. I never hate any rounds in kauh before, because rounds there are very informative, and doctors are great and speak english and attentive, and the cases are advanced cases since most of them are referral. but not psychiatry bluwerggh. i'll spare the details of that psychiatry doctor's takbestness, tak baik spreading the bad words. some people may like the doctor though. but for me, i hate this doctor so much, i even imagined bad things to happen to him.

So, today was my second round in kauh, and i was so lazy to get up. i considered skipping the round but meh, the better part of me dominated. so took a cab, and the cab driver overcharged me. i didn't oblige though,  i stupidly stormed out from his unworthy car. while in the bus, my partner called and texted me that doctor has come and she's the only one there. poor her..

then we had a case of severe mental retardation with self-mutilation, and god it was scary. i couldn't bear looking at the poor child, and his extremely patient parents, can cry an ocean la. the boy had episodes of self-mutilation while consulting, and it was so severe, according to my friend who watched it.

after that we were divided into 3 groups and took history. i.hate.this.part.the.most. bloody boring because of my retarded-like arabic comprehension.

then discussed the case while doctor consulting the patients. the most extreme case so far: a 17yo girl tried to kill her dad 7 times (and laughed it when her dad retelling the story creepy!!!!!!!), tried to kill herself i-forgot-how-many-times by cutting her wrists (she claimed it normal!!), drinking ipax-yes i don't know what's that too, my friend assumed it clorox, and tried to jumped from the balcony, all these started after she lost her mom to gastric cancer, and she blamed her dad for it. and she also has relationship with 22yo normal engaged guy. i pity her dad the most. totally crazy, and she's hospitalized. btw people do not judge her, she is sick and i'm sure she's "unconscious" while doing all these crazy things. not unconscious as in coma, but as in she couldn't think properly.  it's hard though, not to judge and confront her, because i feel it too and i feel like slamming her real hard to give her some senses of her doings and thoughts.

and we were interrupted by a man in rage, he's shivering, shouting and he punched wall so hard. i didn't know why he's like that but it was extremely scary i thought he was going to kill all of us. i even planned my escape route just in case, by pushing the doctor to him, (distracting the man from spotting me) then i'll jump over them to the door.  nothing happened though, the man controlled himself very well, he knew not to hurt people, only hurt the wall.

then i had the most boring seminar ever. it's ok to give boring seminar, i knew, not all people are blessed with fluency and presentation skill. it's totally ok and acceptable. but if it's so boring then just speed it off. i was so bored so i slept. and slides with tables?? really??

then went home, again taxi problem. stupid taxi driver followed longer route, and it angered me because i hadn't pray for zohor yet. then he scolded/raised his voice to us because we're asking why. pure bastard, even my parents aka people i respect the most in this whole world stop scolding me 7 years ago. what right he has to scold me, when he's just a lowlife dirty obnoxious stupid stranger?

and the last catastrophe: blackout, 2 times in this night. first, 1 hour, 2nd, 4 minutes. 1 hour blackout is enough to induce chilblain for me, i hate my weak body. my fingers are all sausage-like, now.

btw, i survived after all. i hate jordan, but i lived here for 5 years already not so good, but still ok. i'm awesome.

tomorrow's lectures day, so i don't want to study today.today's round and blackout really turned my mood off. psychiatry is the rotation i hate the most second to paeds. but since paeds sucks so much it doesn't qualify as a rotation in my mind, psychiatry = rotation i hate the most. the best rotation: o&g. the patients are all women, what's more to ask? and delivery is miracle it gives out good vibes to everyone. it's horror though, to watch a live delivery.

ps: al-fatihah for my junior, allahyarham illham ellani. detail here.