is it goodbye?

3 months ago, i was struggling with final exams, i was stressed and my study desk was filled with thick medical books and boring notes. One night, when i was at the peak of my stress (i lost few kilos over those study weeks), the electricity was kapoof! Out! i was flabbergasted and i suddenly had some jerky movement, (chorea?) and that very calamity happened..:(( my zen dropped from those stacked up books to the floor, and its screen broke from inside. I was so sad i stopped studying that night and just sobbed myself to sleep. i really love my mp, i love it more than my passport and purse. 

Despite the looks, i still used it. It still worked perfectly, the audio was(and still is) perfect, and i still could peek to browse. Until....

The broken screen became worse and it's so hard to browse..i can't peek anymore for different playlist, for dj setting, for equalizer...and it's time for new mp3 player. sad sad sad sad! my history of mp3 player started with a zen exactly like this 2gb, before i carelessly misplaced it, i believed i might have throw it away while clearing my dustbin. i loved that one so much, for its quality and its sentimental value, and also the original creative black silicon skin. then my brother took pity of me and gave me his (the picture). It served me well, just like the first one, though i did take my time to get used to not having the skin. and now, my zen is dying...though the audio still works perfectly..:( :( :(

and the hassle of looking for a new mp3 player is )&*(^&$%#^( irritating! I want zen but there is no creative near my housing area. i'm afraid to try other brands like samsung, sony, or philips because creative is my first love and i'm comfortable with it. a part of me urges for nano but i hate apple and jobs-related and the audio is inferior, not to my liking, not too crisp. i look for creative products from lelong, and the original zen like mine is not available. as expected, it's old and has stopped being produced. and the newer ones are tacky. x-fi= wth with those buttons? x-fi style= newer zen like mine, with mosaic-like cover and x-fi tech and built-in speaker...i consider it, but i hate the mosaic like cover..but this one is close to my needs..and i'm too lazy to research other brands. i don't think i'll like sony because i think it is too complicated for simple and narrow-minded people like me.so many series too, it's confusing! philips ariaz has long playback hours (45+ hours!)..sony can't play flac but people say its audio is superb but there are limited series in malaysia.

and all these hassles start from stupid blackout in irbid 3 months ago! aku memang dendam tnb joden dari dulu lagi! timing blackout tak cantik la...takde warning langsung.