Paeds sucks too much help me!

Now i have 2 reports to be done, and it's loooong! gah, to think how hard i have to work just to secure 4/5 marks. Remember the time i have to sacrifice for surgery rotation? not much, and the interview was awesome, we even laughed together, the doctors and us. and it was like 7 marks. kejadahan sungguh pediatric ini.

btw, i read this blog, she's a med student as well, also in paeds rotation in indonesia. she whined because the doctors there don't teach much. all she did was the nurses job, clerking, taking vital sign etc etc. after that, i just realise there are way too many things i take for granted. here, the doctors teach us too much we have to beg for them to stop, especially in my university's hospital.

still my uni sucks too. i'm thinking of something terrible i'm afraid i might actually do it. big talk big talk big talk much. like i have the gut to.

i'm a suck med student too, suit my suck uni. lazy much and my attitude sucks, i dont have patience while taking history. i realise this during this rotation, when we asked the mother, is it normal for your baby to be like that (that= like distended abdomen, crying during poo/pee, close eye to light etc etc) and they responded like, of course it's normal you dont know? stupid much?
well of course i don't know i never pet anything,  let alone babies. though my brother said i might pet hantu raya because i eat more than average person. the last time i took care of baby was more than a decade ago, of my sister. and my great mum was great, looking after lil la means look if she cried or not.and where she slept, beware so she won't fall down from bed. played with her if i wanted to. and if the house was too silent, pinch her. that's it. and i lost count how many times i prayed for her to grow up faster, because i simply can't stand having a tender tiny clueless innocent creature in my house. it's somehow, not fun. especially when they are npt potty-trained yet. and i think allah heard me, lil la developed faster than average, now that i know the developmental assessment. or maybe she's simply post-term.

wah, i actually just want to whine a bit, don't know i could digress this much. point is, i hate paeds. i miss the elders! put me in a paeds ward for 24 hours, my batch might study me next year in psychiatry.