Oh operator the line is dead..

Yesterday was my first time buying a pen in Jordan, after 3 years studying medicine. The reasons i had to buy pen were,
-all my free pens are having blotting session, sometimes the inks just dried out, due to infrequent usage.
-no more free pen stock, since i didnt participate in any free-pen events. and i dont think they give pens in events anymore, blame unstable economy.

And i realised that, pen in jordan is expensive. if you have rm1 in hand, you cant get any good pen believe me. compared to malaysia, i think stabilo galaxy (not sure this pen still exists or not, but was and still is my all-time fav) is still rm1 and below. next year, i hope they give pen in events, and i want to participate more, to build up stock enough for 2 years. 4th year, participate more, build up stock. 5th year and 6th year, use up all stock. then, back to malaysia, can purchase cheap pen.

i bought a montex pen (kind of jordan carrera) for jd0.5 = rm 2.30 something. expensive, aite? but i had to, if not i will be penless and die due to excessive boredom in wellness class.

and today, i had my psycho mid-term. everything was going well, until i had my monthly excruciating pain 5 minutes before exam. aaaarghh, that pain chose its time very well. i searched for any stashed fendol in my bag, but of course, none was found. i mean, i didnt expect it coming, i came out from house healthily, no sign at all. after this i'll stash a fendol in my purse, really.

so, i answered my exam like a cat in labour, and submitted very early because my brain didnt work better any longer. and, to my grieve, they didnt show our marks today. i guess they want to act good after taking away our precious raya holiday by giving bonus kot. heh. wont get it even in my sleepwalk.

then, i went home, walked home like a drunken salaryman, got changed and took fendol. and makkkk i forgot i didnt eat anything except some biscuits. i usually dont eat much before exam, pre-exam anxiety disorder, unless i really really confident i can do well. so after that fendol+empty stomach, i rushed for some milk, and hailed to the dreamland.

i woke up like 3 hours later, bathed and watched movies, as usual. but my git was so bad, i felt like my intestine shrivelled all the way, upside down and mirror side, if you can understand. nausea too was killing me slowly, but since i didnt eat anything, i have nothing to throw up. but i persevered, too lazy to find anything to eat, and just continued watching some japanese shows...until i felt like collapsing after hunger.

so i cooked instant mee and milo, good combination to worsen to my already super upset git. i had two choices, collapsing from hunger or trips to toilet. i chose the latter. and that's why i'm writing this entry, i cant sleep because my git is killing me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! feel like taking out the whole intestine out from my body, if only i can do that..anyway nausea has subsided, on the good side.

i had too many free days, and the pain chose to come today... at very specific time, just before exam. i sat in between two men today, and i kept pressing my hypogastric region, it made me look like a woman in labour, if they looked at me la. they were not, they were not.

so, conclusion, i want to research more on how to control abdominal cramp effectively, and if can, predict it in narrower time range. it can kill, you know, try imagine a doctor, rushing for work, then in the middle of fast-and-furious-like driving, she got severe pain like me, heh.. she might not only kill herself, but others in close proximity(term term!) will be dragged 10-feets under too.