playing hooky

....for the first time in my working life

but not bad la, i'm not "working" working technically now, so my absence won't affect anyone and i will fill up the leave form tomorrow, so not exactly hooky hooky.

why? a case of severe Monday blues, bad traffic jam and toilet urgency. I woke up like normal and could leave relatively early, but i felt so reluctant, so uneased. i just lied on the bed after subuh, catching up with phone, forcing myself so hard to make coffee and finally took a bath at 7.35. walked out the door by 7.50 and on normal day, i could reach by 8.30-8.45 and that's ok to me.

wazed my way while walking to the car, and wtf??? 53-min journey? hmm ok eta would be 8.50-9, still ok la i'll make do. drove a bit, feeling heavy af and yup, the jam was terrible. by 8.15, i was still not on the main road. waze told me of 19-min delay. hmm sure will punch late la. feeling heavier and heavier...but still continue NFS-ed my way to the main road..

and that sense of urgency started..i usually go to the toilet around 8.30. ah i can hold this, i thought.

now on the main road...oh F_____

crazy jam. super congested and the bridge jam started wayyy before the toll. i glanced over waze, oh man the jam persisted post toll. that sense grew stronger, getting more urgent. and i felt lazier and lazier. i could hear my house and the toilet calling me louder and louder. i won't be doing anything also at work, ok fine i could settle the backlog clinic data entry but no rush. and there's also someone i both looking forward to see and avoid at work oh it's complicated and i'm not feeling like facing this situation today so if only i could skip it...

that's it! i changed my lane, and returned home. 

now feeling significantly better after a toilet visit and changed back to pj :) 

and time to study.

i promise i will go to work tomorrow and be better.