Nasik dah jadi bubur T.T

I screwed up my exam more than usual!

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During the last rotation, i screwed up mini osce, but i got lucky in osce, but in this surgery, i screwed up both for crying out loud!!!!!! 

brief explanation:

- in mini osce, they give us 10 pictures, 2 minutes per pic, and answer 4-5 questions about it.

-in osce, there are 3 stations, and you play doctor. 2 stations for history taking, 1 station for physical examination. 5 minutes per station.

so, in mini osce, there was this  pic that i couldnt even detect which part of human body it is aaaaarghh. as last resort, i just scrabbled some bloody things i dont even know. and there were some pic i think i know, but i didnt actually. also the pic i know, but i couldnt answer the qs. make it short, i just screwed up every qs :((

in osce, well, i got lucky again, i got some very nice examiners. but that didnt help the fact that i got really nervous, and went blank. and i think the q is %@#^&$. scrotal pain??!! we never found one in the ward, why the heck did they ask? rhetoric question, dont answer. but still....actually, i didnt realise how screwed up i am after the exam, because i lost my soul. like seriously. i walked like a zombie after that, to tell you how horror it was. then, in the bus, i reflected upon my performance, and i remembered i didnt ask maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaany things. on all the stations TTT__TTT...and i told the examiner i can find hemorrhoid in digital rectal test stupid stupid stupid!!! after i finely diagnosed the patient with colorectal ca. the doctor then hambat me away, before i couldnt even say i can find mass blablablablablablabla aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarggggggggghh!!
* btw, i checked here we can find hemorrhoids by dre. 

hit me, but seriously, for now, japan's catastrophe isnt the biggest thing that bugs me. before exam, dread for the exam. after exam dread over the mark. life is beautiful that way. dont let your future children take medicine, it's too beautiful that it's sad!